The Christian You Were Told Was Acceptable
“Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind…”— Romans 12:2, ESV The strange thing about a question like this is...
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The Gay Man You Were Taught to Hide
“For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.”— Psalm 139:13–14, ESV Hiding...
Open the LeafThe Priest I Thought I Had to Be
For a long time, I thought I knew what kind of priest I was supposed to be. Or maybe it is more honest to say: I thought I...
Open the LeafWho Are You Really?
I think it is almost comical how blind we become to ourselves. Tragic, yes. Painful, yes. But also absurd. We walk around thinking we know who we are,...
Open the LeafThe Path Is Visible, but the Road Is Not Yet Mapped
This dark night has been exhausting. Mentally. Spiritually. Physically. There are days when I feel like my whole being has been stretched past what it knew how to...
Open the LeafThe Cosmic 2×4
Things are beginning to even out. I do not feel so emotionally and spiritually spun up. I do not feel quite so scattered, quite so raw, quite so...
Open the LeafThe Souls Preparing to Depart
“For dust you are and to dust you will return.”— Genesis 3:19, NIV In contemplation comes wisdom. And in that wisdom, I think I have found my truth....
Open the LeafThe Ministry I Was Trying Not to See
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”— Psalm 34:18, NIV I am beginning to believe that my calling is with...
Open the LeafThe Door Is Beginning to Open
“See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut.”— Revelation 3:8, NIV I have been in more prayer and contemplation lately. And for...
Open the LeafThe Key Is Beginning to Turn
I think the Mother of Sorrows and St. Hildegard of Bingen have been with me this whole time. Through the silence. Through the dark night. Through the veil....
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