The Christian You Were Told Was Acceptable
“Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind…”— Romans 12:2, ESV The strange thing about a question like this is...
Open the LeafUnder the seal of mercy
Leaves copied in the dark, kept for the brothers.
This diary is a narrow room for honest spiritual weather: doubt, grief, prayer, tenderness, weariness, and the patient work of returning to Christ.
Read slowly.
Carry gently.
Answer with mercy.
Hidden leaves from the desk
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The Gay Man You Were Taught to Hide
“For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.”— Psalm 139:13–14, ESV Hiding...
Open the LeafThe Priest I Thought I Had to Be
For a long time, I thought I knew what kind of priest I was supposed to be. Or maybe it is more honest to say: I thought I...
Open the LeafWho Are You Really?
I think it is almost comical how blind we become to ourselves. Tragic, yes. Painful, yes. But also absurd. We walk around thinking we know who we are,...
Open the LeafThe Path Is Visible, but the Road Is Not Yet Mapped
This dark night has been exhausting. Mentally. Spiritually. Physically. There are days when I feel like my whole being has been stretched past what it knew how to...
Open the LeafThe Cosmic 2×4
Things are beginning to even out. I do not feel so emotionally and spiritually spun up. I do not feel quite so scattered, quite so raw, quite so...
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